Saturday, June 27, 2009

Happiness



Stuff to make you smile.




:)

:D

;)

XD

:3

^^



Most folks are about as happy as they make up their minds to be. ~Abraham Lincoln









CHARLIE BROWN
I'm so happy. That little red-headed girl dropped her pencil.
It has teeth marks all over it. She nibbles her pencil.
She's human! It hasn't been such a bad day after all.
Happiness is finding a pencil

SNOOPY
Pizza with sausage

LINUS
Telling the time

SCHROEDER
Happiness is learning to whistle

LINUS
Tying you shoe
For the very first time.

SALLY
Happiness is playing the drum
In your own school band.

CHARLIE BROWN
And happiness is walking hand in hand.
Happiness is two kinds of ice cream...

LUCY
Knowing a secret...

SCHROEDER
Climbing a tree.

CHARLIE BROWN
Happiness is five dif'rent crayons...

SCHROEDER
Catching a firefly...
Setting him free.

CHARLIE BROWN
Happiness is being alone ev'ry now and then.

ALL
And happiness is coming home again.

CHARLIE BROWN
Happiness is morning and evening,
Daytime and nighttime too.
For happiness is anyone and anything at all
That's loved by you.

LINUS
Happiness is having a sister

LUCY
Sharing a sandwich

LUCY AND LINUS
Getting along-

ALL
Happiness is singing together when day is through.
And happiness is those who sing with you.
Happiness is morning and evening,
Daytime and nighttime, too,

CHARLIE BROWN
For happiness is anyone and anything at all
That's loved by you.

LUCY
You're a good man, Charlie Brown.



P.S. if you click on the smiley face it is 2400 square pixels HUGE.

Friday, June 26, 2009

Home

My first "home" was in Sacramento. Next Sunnyvale. Sunnyvale felt like home; I suppose the majority of my formative years were spent there. Santa Clara was sort of home. San Francisco was also sort of home, though less so. My dorm was sort of home.

I don't know if it is touching or heartbreaking when people say they are "going home" for the weekend. It means that they have one; that they still feel some sense of belonging at their parent's dwelling. But it also means that the place they are living does not feel like home.

Then people start to refer to both places as home. I would go "home" for a weekend and then have to return "home" to go to class in the morning. Confusing verbally but more disappointing because whichever place I wasn't felt like home.

I feel fairly at home in Berkeley, and I felt that way long before I came here. That is the main reason I chose this school. I feel somewhat at home in Seattle, too, which is why I thought so seriously about UW.


Home is a strange sort of concept. When we refer to our homes we refer to a building or a city or maybe even a state or country. But the idea of "home" as a feeling or a state of being is nothing new. In fact the concept is so tired it has become its own cliche: "home is where the heart is."

I disagree. My "heart" in the general shallow sense can be in many places; with impoverished or marginalized people, with the slaughtered animals, with the tortured planet, with my loved ones and my friendly acquaintances in times of trouble. But these places are not home, they are distant. These are things that I "care" about but am powerless over. They are things that this strange, small, emotional organ are uncomfortable with. My "heart" in the universal sense is ever-expanding and powerful, but still not necessarily "home." This "heart" is where I can, at a soul level, find love even for Hitler. That is not exactly homey.

[Although if there is some form Truth, that "heart" is where it would live, so if I were practiced enough at accessing it I suppose I could find a home there.]

However home to me is simply comfort, and humans are most comfortable when we feel we belong and that we are safe.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Word Disassociation

This is the most exciting thing I have seen in a very long time.





... it makes me smile :)

Friday, November 21, 2008

Sock Puppet




This is my dragon, Molly. I got her out of a magic [adult swim] tree branch yesterday. Long story.

My favorite quote today:

"You're an outlier my dear."

lol.

Running Man

I first met the Running Man of Berkeley last year, at Sinead's Tea Party. It was my 'shadow day,' when I followed Chris, Rosanna and Sinead to classes, went to Lothlorien's 'Naked Sushi Night,' met Toast at Blake's and decided I wanted to go to Berkeley.

Anyway the Running Man's name is Jay... He's an old-ish Indian guy who runs through campus a lot. You pretty much never see him not running - he just keeps going. He did stop for our tea party that day, though.

Anyway I ran into him on Monday on my way to the gym. He asked me if I was one of those girls from the Tea Party... [I was really surprised that he actually remembered me from that many months ago.] I said yes and he asked me if I've been getting enough chances to workout... Apparently I had told him that I like a variety of forms of exercise. I said yeah, there is plenty of opportunity but it can be hard sometimes to find the time. He asked if I would go running with him... Kind of awkward - I didn't know anything about him but it felt surprisingly un-creepy. I asked where and when he usually runs. He said he is open to running 24 hrs a day and he normally starts at Cafe Strada [a block from my dorm] and goes to the Free Speech Cafe [lower side of campus] and back, and then does several laps like that. That's an entirely populated and familiar route, so I figured it would be fine. I've been wanting a workout buddy anyway. I told him I can't run during the day - I'm pale and get sun-stroked really easily. I thought about when I would actually be free and told him I would meet him at 5pm Thursday at Cafe Strada.

I didn't tell anybody, which I found kind of odd. Then again there are a lot of things that I just never feel like telling anyone. So Thursday rolled around and I went to Cafe Strada. I was absolutely exhausted and if I had had a way to contact Jay I would have told him I was too tired. But if I hadn't shown up I would have felt really bad about ditching him. I wasn't totally sure he would show up though either, but I had that all planned out - there was a class at the gym I would have gone to if he hadn't shown up. But he did.

We ran from the cafe to Piedmont and back 3 times, which he said was about 0.6 miles. It was really uphill so I said no more past three. He has the most hilarious up-and-down method of running; kind of made me want to start giggling whenever he got ahead of me. We did one circuit through campus, and I felt really odd - a student running with the Running Man who most people probably think is crazy. Luckily I didn't run into anyone I know...

After that lap he told me that that was a good 'initiation.' Not sure exactly what I've been initiated into but he wants to turn me into the "Running Girl" of Berkeley - which is something I am not actually open to becoming, but it's nice of him. Apparently he is an ex-heavy smoker and believes that running has saved his life, which it likely has. He says it is now his entire image: when he walks around, people stop him to ask why he is not running. I was pretty exhausted - the run was not long - less than 2 miles - but it was a lot more uphill than I am used to. He said I would feel fantastic in a couple of hours, which is often the case with running.

According to the number of laps he told me he runs each day, he must run about 6 miles daily. Why does he still have such a belly on him? I don't get it.

Running has become his meditation, I think. He says that nothing awakens the body like running does, and it must make him genuinely happy or he would not devote so much of his time to it. He did not exactly give me advice or try to teach me a life lesson, but it felt like that was what he was getting at. The Running Man of Berkeley may not be exactly profound, but he has certainly mastered the spiritual side of running. Maybe I just like guys with Indian accents trying to sound all wise. Kind of odd, yes, but hey - it's what I grew up with. :D

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Effing the Ineffable

Hello, and welcome to my brainstorm for Rhetoric.
Wilkommen.
Bienvenue.
Welcome.
I am supposed to post on the class blog about something ineffable, so yes, this is a blog to prep for a blog.

What is something that cannot be put into words? I am tempted to approach "love" in this fashion, but that seems too cliche. Everyone knows love cannot be effed, or people wouldn't have been attempting to do it with centuries of writing. If it could simply be written it would have been done and people would have gotten on with their lives. But then shouldn't that be more reason to write about it? It seems to be an unending source of inspiration, and who am I to say that it is suddenly cliche? Perhaps its inspiration is unending. Or maybe facebook has ruined the idea of writing about love, because it has been turned into stupid little "OMG I LOVE YOU SOOOOOO MUCH YOU SEXY, SEXY BEAST." Not that I don't find that entertaining.

So yeah. I am not going to attempt to eff love.

Looking around my room.... what is profound enough that it cannot be put into words? Flowers. Even more cliche than love. Calender: time. Nope, too much has been written about that. I could write about something random and creative like fog and cat feet and ... oh. That's been done already, too. So I need to write something that doesn't have a an infinite stream of poetry already railing after it.

Sandals. No. Lotion. No. Inspiration? Being that I have none, no. Duct tape? No, that's already been effed simply by relating it to the Force in Star Wars.

Grr.

Ketchup.

The girl at Smart Alec's refilled the ketchup dispenser. I rather like ketchup, and was disappointed that the dispenser was being refilled just as Drew and I were finishing our "Smart Fries." But honestly after watching that process I was not interested in ketchup at all..... The dispenser had a bag of ketchup, and for some reason all I could think about was what it would be like to drink that entire thing of ketchup. Large bottles of ketchup do not do this to me, but for some reason the combination of soft plastic with liquid ketchup forces me to imagine its texture in my mouth.
And why isn't it Catsup anymore? That's such an awesome word.
And... and... did you know people are selling ketchup flavored potato chips?
And... and... and... I thought this was cool: